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Hi, my name is Ebony. I am sadly currently a size 24, obese, at the height of 5'10. I been obese maybe since 16 years old. Always trying and failing.To be honest food taste good and as I type this I want to eat again when I just ate a hour and a half ago. I use to mainly stress eat only when really unhappy or stressed out with worry. Now it became a serious habit and now I eat just to get that full feeling back, or when am bored, and still when sad and worried, my calories also come from drinking can after can of soda and juice. My life was never perfect and never that much decent to be honest so I had alot of bad happenings and few good things, so the cheapest thing was always to eat. Plus I ride the bus and eating again is faster to get to *its right within your own home a lot of times, and cheaper so how can you beat that? Sometimes food is even free coming in the form of free samples (Albersons, Whole foods, costco...just to name a few) My weakness has always been sweets and maybe like 3-5 years ago I went to the doctor and she said am borderline diabetic, I remember thinking borderline? Ok am safe. Am 23 years old and have not seen a doctor for some years now...money always the issue. No insurance either. Who knows what my true current health is, but it may be too late by then once I find out. My goal is to be a size 4, when I was 18 I always wanted to be a size zero since it was the model fashion size and all the range and only a few could handle hardly eating to get there I would be on top of the world I thought! At 23 I said a size 4 is not bad. Deep down I know I will miss eating whenever I wanted and how much of it. Unless am prepared to exercise over 4 hours a day to lower some of my calories I binged on for the day. I want to enjoymy life within this body. Many pros come with being slim. More so compared to when your large or somewhat chubby. Anyway I plan to keep this blog to post pics and update on my life and so on.
